
Met some new friends on today’s walk. I’m looking forward to visiting them again in the near future..

Met some new friends on today’s walk. I’m looking forward to visiting them again in the near future..

A moment ago I was standing by myself on the porch, watching the remaining of the light in the sky slowly went out. I wasn’t sad, but I couldn’t say that I was happy. Numb, I suppose would be the closest to how I felt. The world is crazy and the worst is that we are feeling helpless. We could only observe and witness the process as it all goes down. But we’ve got to find a way to continue living and not let it poison our minds..

Today I received the new lens I ordered for my Nikon Zfc. I really love the shallow depth of field it creates. This new lens is ideal for street photography, but as you might have known already, my main interest is portraiture. Before I could find willing subjects, I guess I’ll be testing this lens for still life.

Do you know what these are?
These are dead leaves of the agave that died last year. We never got rid of it. It’s still sitting there with its stalk standing tall and all the dried flowers on top of it. We see it as an art piece in our garden. Like a statue, almost. Let’s see how long we get to enjoy its beauty.

Can’t pinpoint what it was, but today started out quite positively and now I’m feeling a bit in a funk. I was in good spirit, did my Español lesson religiously after breakfast, then sat on the porch reading a book while watching incense burn. At that moment all felt “right”, as if this was all I ever wanted..
It’s yet another hot summer day that the temperature reached low 90°F. Towards afternoon, clouds got thicker and the sun disappeared. We came back home from town and I saw the currently flowering agave. It’s beautiful, and at the same time it dampened my mood. I brought my camera and captured this image..

Have you ever taken a closer look at Bluebeard flowers? It always blows my mind looking at those delicate, intricate shapes and forms. Not to mention the color, which has always been my favorite when it comes to plants.

August 8th in Taiwan is Father’s Day. Random fleeting thoughts about my father naturally crossed my mind. I don’t usually think about my father. It’s not that he wasn’t a good father. He was oftentimes not at home due to his profession. Growing up, I realized that I never really had a father figure to talk to. But the memories I do have of him, most of them are positive and happy ones. I do miss him sometimes, even though there’s not too many specific moments I could recall..
I brought some of his belongings back to the U.S. with me the past few years. Sometimes when I look at these items, my heart fills up with gratitude. 爸,父親節快樂,may you rest in eternal peace..

Now we see everything that’s going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don’t have the means
To rise above and beat itSo we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change.. and when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they wantIt’s not that we don’t care,
We just know that the fight ain’t fairThat’s why we’re waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change..
“Waiting On The World To Change” by John Mayer

Today a friend whom we haven’t heard from for almost two years sent me a long email. It once again reminded me how impermanent everything is. At one point I was ready to let go of this friendship since it felt like a one way effort.
A missing card in the mail. That was the cause of a whole chain of doubts. Received his message this morning certainly made my day. All the memories came rushing back into my head..

Although today’s temperature continues to be oppressively hot, I feel light and without restraint. That invisible heavy weight has vanished. While my companion was resting in our bedroom with the AC on, I sat alone outside on the porch watching the sunset slowly turn into night. It’s so beautiful.. and my heart is full of gratitude and hope.