Today a friend whom we haven’t heard from for almost two years sent me a long email. It once again reminded me how impermanent everything is. At one point I was ready to let go of this friendship since it felt like a one way effort.
A missing card in the mail. That was the cause of a whole chain of doubts. Received his message this morning certainly made my day. All the memories came rushing back into my head..
Although today’s temperature continues to be oppressively hot, I feel light and without restraint. That invisible heavy weight has vanished. While my companion was resting in our bedroom with the AC on, I sat alone outside on the porch watching the sunset slowly turn into night. It’s so beautiful.. and my heart is full of gratitude and hope.
Remember the farm windmill I mentioned a while ago? I was thrilled that the community finally replaced it and went there often just to admire it. About two months ago we noticed that the windmill was gone. At the time we thought it needed repair and would be back up spinning again soon. Everybody here knows how unpredictable and wicked strong the wind can be in Eldorado. I start to think that it’d never be back..
Blame it on jet lag then. Today went by so fast unproductively. I have a hard time remembering anything that I’ve accomplished.
These two days since we came back from Australia have been stressful for no particular reasons. And the unpleasant high temperature is tough for my companion. This afternoon when I went to check our mailbox, I found our chamisa which I planted the year after we move here is dead. Its gentle green has turned into color of yellow dust. I felt sad, exhausted and tied of it all..
We left Brisbane on Sunday, July 19th at around 11 AM and we arrived at San Francisco International Airport on the same day at 7:15 AM. So we arrived before we even left?
Today is the last day of June. Looking back, it has been quite a month. But essentially not much has changed. Someone once told me that in life it’s a good thing that all stays the same. I get the point. However, I also believe that the only constant is change. We all need to be aware of that.
We received some rain this afternoon, which was helpful but far from enough. However the colors of the sky were serenely beautiful..
I know, I know, I know… It doesn’t get easier if I keep waiting for the right moment. It was my idea to move here from New York. And It was a decision that stunned most of our friends. What happened last year changed something. On top of that, this country is on an uncertain path and the future looks grim as far as we can see.. I’m torn.. and something is got to happen..
This is literally the only image I captured today. I was somewhat unsettled by what we saw on the way to my companion’s PT. I only wish everyone there was okay and it was all nothing..
This afternoon I finally set up the umbrella for the porch. It has been sitting in the garage for years. The wind in Eldorado can be really strong, and I’m reluctant to use it because of that. Now it’s been installed, we still have to keep an eye on it the whole time.
I did spend an hour on the porch reading afterwards. I haven’t felt this content living here since a while..