Nobody knows what’s on my mind the moment we landed in San Francisco. I looked at the city intensely through the Uber window on our way to the hotel yesterday, and I wondered if my companion had detected anything. This is something I have to tell him eventually. I’m waiting for the right moment, but I fear that the “right” moment might never come..
This image was captured at 5:07 in the morning on my departure day. I wanted to document the empty streets seen from our bedroom window. This was the first image captured due to camera’s inability to auto-focus.
Out of focus, or blurry vision. Just like my Mom’s uncertain future.. I have no solution. None of my siblings have any constructive ideas, either. Everyone seems to hide behind the excuse of having their own life. That’s the reality. That’s the way it is..
After spending more than half a day tidying up our house and finalizing the luggage, we drove to Albuquerque to stay at a hotel since my flight departs before the sun even rises tomorrow morning.
My mind is all over the place and I don’t want to leave my companion behind. Since a few years I often feel like I’m in a bind and continue to failing to find a balance. Maybe there’s no solution. Maybe I have been thinking too much. Maybe this is one dilemma that I simply cannot please both sides.
In my mind I’m thinking about the things we would do for love.. and how far we would be willing to go..
